Monday, January 21, 2008

Haunted by the Ghosts of Goya

(Spoiler warning)

I can only count a few scenes in movies I've seen which disturbed and moved me, and one of it was Ines Balbatua's (Natalie Portman) violent unwrapping from an innocent, rather happy, sheltered, captivating maiden into a broken, decayed, decrepit woman, snatched from her abode, malevolently accused, disgraced, humilated and rendered meaningless - like a flower plucked and left by the roadside, to be trampled - its fleshy, colored petals turning the color brown and green, mixing with mud and muck.

What is most disturbing is not that Ines was real, as she was not, but that an innumerable number of Ines Balbatuas could have lived, and/or died a cruel, wasted life because of wicked men of the cloak. As I write this, I recall Jose Rizal's Noli Me Tangere and its sequel, El Filibusterismo which gave life to the, still unfulfilled, passion in me to learn the Spanish language if only to read these two novels in the original. Come to think of it, it is probably not far-fetched to think that the writers of Los Fantasmas de Goya (Goya's Ghosts), Miloš Forman and Jean-Claude Carrierre have been influenced by the Rizal novels.

Ines Balbatua is as sheltered, and as subduedly desired as Maria Clara who was also the only daughter of a very rich merchant who can afford to make generous contributions to the Church. While Rizal's artistic license was bridled by the sensibilities of his time, Los Fantasmas de Goya graphically depicted the plucking of Ines, her being put to "The Question," stark naked - devoid of her elaborate dress which so prettily she carried as she got off her carriage and knocked at the Church's imposing door. "The Question" scene indelibly etched in my memory what desnuda means. Ines was stripped not only of her clothes, but her honor. A prized possession of her family, she was no more than fresh meat, hanged and displayed in full view of men who, while clothed in cloaks, were nonetheless men. After confessing her "guilt," she was thrown naked and chained in the filthy, dank and miserable dungeon, amidst equally filthy, dank and miserable, err, beings: using the term "humans" would be an oxymoron.

The movie also unraveled what could have caused Maria Clara's insanity, prodding her to jump to her death, in the scene where Ines was defiled, which led her to being seduced by Padre Lorenzo (as scheming as Padre Salvi) whose modus operandi was a joint prayer not much unlike the confessions of Maria Clara's mother to Padre Damaso.

It took fifteen years after before Ines, literally, saw the light. Still, she remained in darkness. Incredible it may seem how she remained alive, this was adequately explained when it was revealed that she conceived: finding her child kept her hoping, it kept her wanting to stay alive. Contrary to the truth, she saw Lorenzo as her savior, as the only man in her life, her object of affection. All she wanted was to find her daughter and bring her to him. It is probably not difficult to imagine that all these years she loved him, he who brought upon her misery, being the one who prodded the Church to return to the use of "The Question," a method of extracting confession through hideous torture, to weed out heretics, defined at that time as protestants, jews, moslems. Ines paid dearly for her aversion to pork which caused her to be suspected as practising Judaism.

Scared, shamed and alone, Ines found comfort in Lorenzo's visits, bringing news of her family and praying with her. A good and true Lorenzo was her truth. What is real though is that, after she was freed, the child she found in the tavern was not hers, as her Alicia had fled the orphanage where she was brought after Ines gave birth, and she has since become a harlot. What is real though is that Lorenzo never wanted her to regain her senses, as the truth in her would disgrace him once more. He never wanted her to be reunited with her daughter who he even sought in order to bribe her to agree to exile herself away from Spain. She was not as naive as her mother, she screamed, and fled.

Ines' truth is not unlike the movie's Church's truth: that God would give you the strength and the will to endure pain if only to resist acceeding to their truth; that confessions obtained by torture are true. Pondering about it, it was really God who is put to The Question when he is taunted to avert an evil, so contrary to Jesus' commandment to love thy neighbor. Living in a society of freedom, where the mass is read in a known language by a priest who does not turn his back on the faithful, where the Word is at the tip of your fingers if not at the tip of your tongue, I cannot fathom how the Church then even thought of any justification for bringing hell on earth through those inquisitions. Possibly, only the belief that any pleasure is sin, and all rational thinking is whispered by the enemy could justify such atrocities.

What is the truth? Truth to them was that the sun revolves around the earth, and they will burn at stake anyone who attempts to disprove it. Truth to you may be feelings of affection towards someone who, if you can only peek into the future, would never love you back the same way you love him, ever. Truth to Ines may be a family with Lorenzo, an infant child, when the the truth is that Lorenzo is dead, and her child has long lost her innocence.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

UP survey

I got this survey from Ted Te's blog.

1. Student number?
93-05340

2. College?
CSSP
LAW

3. Course?
Psychology
Law

4. Nag-shift ka ba o na-kickout?
Hindi ako nag shift or na kick-out.

5. Saan ka kumuha ng UPCAT?
Sa UP Diliman, School of Economics Auditorium. May baon ako nun na 2 bars ng Hershey with Almonds and 2 tetra packs of Magnolia Fresh Milk. Mula noon, lagi na ako may baon na ganun sa major, scary exams.

6. Favorite GE subject?
Nat Sci 2

7. Favorite PE?
Swimming

8. Saan ka nag-aabang ng hot girls/guys sa UP?
Sa AS Lobby naka tambay crush ko nun. Hehe.

9. Favorite prof(s)
Fidel Nemenzo (Math 11 and 14)
Heidi Emily Abad (Com 2)
Albert Muyot (Crim 1, 2 and Torts and Damages)


10. Pinaka-ayaw na GE subject.
Hindi ko naman hate pero Chem 16 ako pinaka natakot bumagsak, pero fun naman ang mga experiments.

11. Kumuha ka ba ng Wed or Sat classes?
Nope. I took summer classes though.

12. Nakapag-field trip ka ba?
Once, for Hum 2, sa Metropolitan Museum where we say the Treasures of Vatican

13. Naging CS ka na ba or US sa UP?
Yes to both.

14. Ano ang Org/Frat/Soro mo?
UP Bukluran sa Sikolohiyang Pilipino (Buklod-Isip),
UP Women in Law

15. Saan ka tumatambay palagi?
Nung college, sa PHAn at saka sa CSSP Library (hehe).
Nung law school, sa Malcolm Hall, of course.

16. Dorm, Boarding house, o Bahay?
Bahay

17. Kung walang UPCAT test at malaya kang nakapili ng kurso mo sa UP, ano yun (Given ang mentality mo nung HS ka)?
BS Psych and first choice ko but I got my second choice, BA Psych. I would have chosen BS Psych kung walang UPCAT pero buti na lang BA Psych ako! More free electives!

18. Sino ang pinaka-una mong nakilala sa UP?
Si Marge Antonio, blockmate ko.

19. First play na napanood mo sa UP?
Hamlet, in Filipino.

20. Name the 5 most conyo orgs in UP
Hahaha! JPIA, JMA, PsychA...

21. Name 5 of the coolest orgs/frats/soro in UP.
For me, Buklod Isip kasi serious talaga ang mga tao sa pagpapalaganap ng Sikolohiyang Pilipino, UP Mountaineering Society (astig!), and SAMASKOM (later ko lang na realize na super cool sila). :) Yung ibang org, either wala ako alam about them enough for me to be inspired to admire them, or di ko lang nakita ang katuturan nila. Hehe. Peace!

22. May frat/soro bang nag-recruit sa yo?
Yes. Sigma Alpha Nu. I didn't join but the two girls who recruited me I really admire.

23. Saan ka madalas mag-lunch?
Sa CASAA, Beachhouse, Greenhouse.
Nung nasa law school na ako, kung saan saan na.

24. Masaya ba sa UP?
Of course! Super! Ermitanyo ka kung bored ka. Any moment in UP could spring a surprise.

25. Nakasama ka na ba sa rally?
Yes. Protest about the selection of Emil Q. Javier as UP President over Dodong Nemenzo. My gash - - - super tanda ko na, naging UP President na si Dodong Nemenzo at nakatapos na ng term! Lightning rallies within the campus and caravan from UP Diliman to UP Manila then Mendiola.

And then, Edsa Dos of course.

26. Ilang beses ka bumoto sa Student Council?
Lahat ng elections bumoto ako. So, eight times. Pati elections sa UP Law Student Government, walang eleksyon na di ako nakaboto.

27. Name at least 5 leftist groups in UP
LFS... yun lang maalala ko.

28. Pinangarap mo rin bang mag-laude nung freshman ka?
Hindi ko pinangarap kasi akala ko mahirap maging laude pero nung naging US ako, naisip ko, kaya pala!

29. Kanino ka pinaka-patay sa UP?
Hahaha!!! I can think of two crushes I had in college pero I will not mention their names. One is already a doctor, the other one I don't know what happened to him.

30. Kung di ka UP, anong school ka?
Ateneo ang dream school ko nung high school pero waitlisted lang ako at saka mahal pala. Buti na lang. Di pala kaya ng mom ko na dun ako paaralin. hehe.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Ciudad en Celo (City in Heat)

It is regrettable that I missed seeing even a single film is Pelicula, last year's Spanish Film Fest sponsored by Instituto Cervantes. Just like Fiesta in 2006, last year's film fest was held at Greenbelt 3's THX cinemas. I was able to watch Princesas and El Metodo in 2006 but missed seeing the 2007 line up. I wanted to see 7 Virgenes, Ciudad en Celo, Lantana and Tu Vida en 65, but at the last opportunity, all the seats were sold out (I don't remember which film it was) so we just watched Stardust, which, luckily, I really enjoyed so I even blogged about it.

After hours of idleness in front of the computer, with a little help from geeky friends, I was able to watch Ciudad en Celo, with English subtitles. (Just to digress, I found out I can actually edit the subtitles by altering the .srt file!) Aside from igniting my passion to enhance my knowledge of the Spanish language, I was so pleased with this film I would highly recommend it to my friends. I won't go into any review of the film which could spoil the plot for any of you. Let me just say that it is curious how this film can relate to people's sentiments asking why they are, why they are not, why are they not yet, why they can't be, why they are no longer, and why they even thought they won't ever again be in a relationship. Which question are you asking? Which question am I asking?

Some movies paint love stories as if love happens as matter of fact, black or white, in heat or not. Whoever coined the social networking term "it's complicated" was at the same wavelength as the filmmakers Ciudad en Celo. Love, indeed, is always complicated.